fundoo Gyaan on giving joy to others

This week and weekend had some mixed moods.Some nagging family problems got solved a lil bit. My younger brothers wife's father called him and spoke to him.They are muslims and did not approve the marriage. My S-I-L was worrried and got sick; and finally her mother spoke to her this week.There was huge sigh of releif tough the problems are not fully solved. Her mother is yet to approve the marriage. One of the monthly horosope newsletter predicted a new acquaintence this month by 16th and exactly on that day i got two pings thru orkut----Both were my old frienz...ah!I am not sure if it was a prediction accuracy. I get new pings once a while....hmm let it be as it is.....I had some mail exchange with this guy whom i shall address as "Peter". I was conversing with him and suddenly the topic moved towards "feeling guilty". hmm..peter told me something on this and quoted Swami on this context which i have pasted below

"....as an infant you used to move around naked all over the place. Are you ashamed of that now? No. Similarly, what you did before was alright for that time . But just as you would not keep walking around unclothed now as a grown up, you should amend your ways now as........."

I was just impressed with this quote and was kind of overwhelmed......evn b4 i cud digest some things he told, i got to know his driving philosophy in life.....'Be with others to give them joy and not to derive joy from their company.' I asked Plato on what he feels about the quote.....he said tht must one monk to do this....Its really difficult to follow..............oooops! too much to digest for the weekend.My mind keeps ruminating over his words again and again...absolutely no mood to work.

Aside:
Saturday was working day to compnsate for leave due to Rajkumars death. Ppl came at around 11:00 am and my manager told them to clean the Lab. We had luncheon at Radha Hometel.
I Went to subbu's house for dinner and got fully drenched on way back.
Saw some nasty football between Italy and USA..with three red cards and one self goal by Italy.
Some ppl in here are talking about my christian gal friend. Incidentally, I created a character by name "Jasmine Thomas" to show-off to Aasif that i have a Gal frind who is very beautiful and wud marry only if i get converted to christianity.

Aasif ---Fanaa!

I took a resolution loong back on updating the blog on regular basis. One ,it should improve my writting skills-something that never improved since school days.It will be really a great one to read all these things 20 years from now. hmmmmmmm....Let me make a attempt (count=1)

It was good week and weekend. Plato is leaving this weekend to Gurgaon. i had very nice time with him for a year and half.In the age of emails, chats and mobile fones, keeping in touch should not be a problem. I am not sure if each of us will be motivated to call the other on regular basis.Plato, Aasif and me met at Aaranyas, roof top. Aasif had same voice and accent. A Simley countenance and a typical Chennaite mindset about bangalore ----"Nothing is good in b'lore except for the climate." We recollected our school days with great joy. There is something very special with our class. Most of us were togather for just 2 years , IX and Xth, but we feel as tough we know each other for a very loong time. I always felt, the innovative English course that CBSE got in our IXth standard has a unifying effect on all of us. Those radio shows, group studies, comment on pictures, story completion....ah! all these made us work togather, kinnted us into one nice fabric.


I got up late on saturday morning,gave my bike for "servicing", picked it up at 5:00 and went to innovative multiplex with my frindz to see "Fanaa".Kajol was shown very beautifully in the movie, the story would have lot more thirilling effect on me but for the novel " The eye of the needle". The climax overlapped with one of few novel tht i read. Sunday we played cricket at Halli manne and I acquired body pains. I saw 'You have got Mail' starring Tom hanks and Mc Ryan in the noon! a wonderful movie that had vry soothing effect on my mind...I tried to participate on P9 jingle compostion, but ended in sleeping hte whole noon and good part of evening. Back home at 7:30 and had dinner at Chappati shop. Got two pills and slpet like log.

Aside
Very surprisingly this time the traffic at marthahalli was moving in meters/min as against inches/min.The quite roads in EPIP are getting more choked with cars and bikes frm the nearby Tech park's.

An Angel's Avoidable Anger ...

Recently, i came across a blog, the author of whom i know not......I usually read blogs of people whom i dont know and it has been my self imposed policy of not to post any comments.I donno why i left some comment in this blog, May b i was compelled to write a single word in praise of her fotos, but ended up typing some random thoughts tht precipitated in my mind then....as if the was not enough, i asked her to visit my blog to know my take on her post....hmmm..I am not sure about penning my thoughts clearly .....Hope it does not irritate her further....

One fine morning, this pretty girl, comes out of her room and sees the misty morning fog in the garden lawns...Her sleep dissolves in the rising sun and sneaky fog... she decides to store this sceneray for posterity in her Camera, and also has shares these beautiful pics with others ...hmm..she has potrayed this heavenly morning mood in simple words and with stunning fotos. Later, she goes to school and translates her inspiration into some productive work at Lab. Our cindrella, then chose to enjoy the pleasent afternoon with her friendz in a Ice cream shop.hmmm...this lovely mood was smacked away by a lil message she recieves frm her boy friend tht gives a link to mischievous video ---it shows a man paying $200 to feel a Girls breast. Needless to say, our Alice in Wonderland becomes ...Raani Mangamma...She describes men as socially insensitive beings, purpose of their existence is to enjoy the carnal pleasures,hungry wolves hunting for women's flesh..bla bla bla..
there is certainly a grace in her expression of anger, .....I am pretty sure tht she has typed all these sentence in one go, like Sivaji Ganeshan Deliverling tht lengthy Dialogues in one breath, in the movie "Parashakthi"...She asks a series of Questions about men and their intentions/feelings as thy look at a women...thn she askes a typical cliche..."aren't u born with sisters? will u look at your mother like tht?" ..these are standard indian dialogues...I am very surprised tht this girl staying in the US for 4 years now has poured out her feelings in a very indian way (by this i mean pl satyed in US shud hve lil broader understanding of sex and soceity)..... I thought abt this at length in the weekeknd....this is a nagging problem tht i often come across....either frm my sister or my gal friendz ....I really dont hve a very convincing take on this, but i feel with great conviction tht "it has something to do with Women's mentality"....before i try to understand and analyse the situation...I confess that i really understand the nauseating experience of seeing such videos and being Indian women.....Any act of sexual provocation has to be condemed and in our society women seeem to face this problem more than men....In the quest to project the attrocities faced by thm, women tend to overdo things....It wud hve been a fine argument if she has just talked abt problems of sexual proovation..eveteasing etc etc..she streteched the argument way tooo far frm tht ...condemning Men as social beasts, hunting Women as their prey....ofcourse, she masked it all very nicely in the last sentence..."if u r not one of those men, I salute u" ...

Wat really pissed me off is her argument tht that Sex is just a mechanism for sustainence of man kind,...sex for any other reason is totally condemnable and not allowed......I cant really blame her for this...It has something to do with Hindu Soceity and their pooorly understood culture. It descibes tht the path to attain Nirvana shud be Devoid of Sex....
Personally, i feel sex is one more form of enjoyment...some ppl like to amass wealth, others like to accomplish....and some like our cindrella loves the beauty of nature...and in t he very same way there r ppl who like to hve sex.Western Socieity has really understood this concept...A women willing to sell her body is allowed to do so and Men can purchase this pleasure by paying the right amount...Some ppl accept this, while most of us consider this Blasphemous ...including me and i blame it largely on the way i was brought up....ofc ourse, i am trying to come out of these forced beliefs ...

I feel that "sex seeking" is not very symetrically distributed between genders.To explain this, let me pose the inverse problem!! what if i get video frm my frind(guy or gal) which shows a gal paying $200 to get feel of a man's flesh...
I wud consider tht as any other forward, ....certainly not get disturbed evn a bit... I am sure this is the case with most of the men. Why is this So? ...Is it tht women care lot more abt being virgin than men....if ye, why so?....possibly, the soceity has beeen very Patriachial....Men does not want their wives to think abt anyone else other than thmselves and women were very submissive....thy feel demeaned whn anyone other than husband appriciates thm...
< i hang this thread here, and complete it whn i bcome clear on my beliefs>

Body as Piece of Meat
if body has to b considered as piece of meat....thn why worry if someone smothers this meat...Sex is just a series of Elecro chemical reaction, feeble elctricity tht sparks very few neurons...expansion and contraction of muscles....why to get irritated or angered by this....hmmmm evn anger can be define tht way...okay i am not very articulate in wat i want to convey...its just tht "looking at body parts a piece of meat is usually done by some realised soul, like Budhha or Shankaracharya, who has realised the ultimate truth....anyother average human would certainly get tempted by 'body compositions" of opposite gender...

Evn our cindrella and her friend A has been in praise of Actor soorya....there wordings does not suggest me tht they were merely praising his artistic skills....Possibly a mild crush...hmmm..may not be...


Aside: Message to my sister:
Dont mistake me to b another Sex starved individual....I am trying to weed out all the beliefs,rituals and culture forced on me by "A Typical conservative Tamil Society"

Baptizing the group ……“Stirring the Hornet’s nest”

We are into a new project and that is to give a identity to ourselves, a group of 20+ ppl…all from the same institute, stretched out on mother earths lap…It all started with a simple job of opening a G~ group. Someone asked us to suggest a name….prompt came 2 names…..X and Y…each with solid backing by small disjoint subset of ppl….Supporters of X andY tried to persuade the rest to vote for their name with claims that it truly reflects our identity…certainly hornets were off the hive buzzing allover…
Mails started flooding the inbox, each suggesting new names, some with justification of what is means and others looked a expression of heightened mental activity….and some others were mutated versions of previously suggested names. After a week of intense and aggressive peddling of the issues against all the odds, the bureau embraced a name that allegedly had a mystical origin. No one could explain on how /who coined this word….and what it means….hmmm after much deliberation a meaning was interpreted out of it…the name is Platform9 or P9…I just love this word and I need no explanation for what it means…tough I am quite happy with the interpretation tht I suspect to be after thought.

Stocking Muscles and Money

Lot of things things happend this week. I joined Gym. I was motivated by my friend "Plato". After a thorough inquiry i found that 10:30 am to 3:30 pm the gym will be virtually empty. I really had to find such a slot for my work out to save some embarassments and as guessed i had tough time for first few days..I fell down while doing push-ups,, stretch outs....hmm things just did not stop at gym...after my first day work out...my entire shoulder, ribs, chest and neck were paining....I went to cafeterria to have lunch....and found difficult to hold the plates...I broke 2 glass tumblers in a week...
Things did not stop there...my second day at gym..i was walking, jogging...gasping breath on treadmill...the timer seem to move like tortoise....hmm...10 mins of walk was too difficult.....fortunately i cant just stop.....i may fall down......hmm a terrible thing happend...i was making all sorts of expression on my face...so much so that somebody walking along just stopped by and told..."u just hve to walk on that...u make expression as tough u r fighting 1000 elephants ...just tak eit easy..."i quickly realised wat i was doing...my mouth was peeking out...i was gasping breath ..and all the muscles in my face were shrunken..making an expression as tought i just tasted bittergoud....".immediately i had a gleeful smile on my face and was gently breezed along the treadmill and came to stop.....

Well the second thing that happened this week is "making money in stock market"...I had a bet with "Plato" on who will make 25K to 100K first?....Quite challenging.......Pray to god that i will fisrt and fast......

So for commign months i will be concentrating on Muscles and money..well i need to spend money to stock my muscles(to buy all that hifi supplement foods, ceratine monohydrade tablets).......did i hear ppl say "u need Muscle power to earn money"

Student Life .....

Last week was quite hectic- as usual. Yet another week to feel happy about being here. I cannot imagine working like this elsewere. This weekend was great revelation cum relaxation.I was just thinking about my school college days. When i think of past i am filled with mixed emotions.. But, very thankfully, i have trained myself to forget the dark.

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I recollect with sweet fondness of my quest to be independent and to different from others. I loathed to do something that has already been done,to research on something that is well established..its like re-discovering the wheel...... but what i lacked was patience and hard work. I was passionate about knowlegde and was once in spree to acquire everything from books....but in that i dissolved the sense of reasoning and logic..I was certainly an above average student, ..almost consistently in first decile of class... but never at top. As a student i was well aware of my weakness....I cud have given a try to be the first..... I always thought and continue to believe that being a finest and brightest student is gift of god.. i can imitate a to some extent with my pedantic strategems....but never reproduce the acumen the sagacity and shrewdness of god's produce..... I still hold on to this feeling... Arguably my mother says.. this is one of the many stupid reasons given by lazy people who cannot study. I strongly feel that a truly outstanding student is dispassionate, enthusastic and sincerely seeks knowledge and makes the job of the instructor increasingly useless by becoming self reliant.Alas!! I only tried to imitate .. I gave this as excuse to bunk classes and lectures.... I classified few lectures as boring, some as uninteresting and branded others as useless... This is feeling was further strengthend by my quest for independence, self reliant... I partially agree with my mother --- it was an excuse. I sincerely regret for this.. however given another opportunity i wud sit in the classroom with all my neurons clearly directed/ focused towards the lecture....Yup! still i feel strongly only a natural student can do this fete and i can imitate...

I am bit tired of writting this stuff... I will continue sometime later.....All i wanted to convey is my outlook of life.. why i lived so.. I still have sooo much life ahead... I am positive about it...want to live it with ehthusiasm and vigour...

And my rummmage continues......

Two months after creating this blog, i found some time to post my thoughts. ....and yea, i still continue to search for some unknown stuff everywhere... I wonder why god apparently gives so many choices...I try my best to keep my choice list as small as possible but alas! i still have to choose from the TWO. This has been most difficult for me., and i have been doing the ad-hoc stuff.. but anyway i never pined for the "road not taken"... Life has been so good all these days.. ..I am trying to get new meaning into life by delving deep into the culture of the past... there is immense urge in me to visit my childhood homes--hmm, My current job has vitiated me from doing so many things that are close to me....

I experience the sweetness of life but not able to express it. Its a sin. why?, well..if u enjoy life it means u enjoy every thing that makes up ur life--parents,friends,office-collegues, ...street-dogs,my surroundings bla, bla,bla... and its ur duty to give back as much as u receive....

Hmm, i will find the way out sooon....

My thanks to Deepak Jahagirdar for teaching me to blog....